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Learning to Relax

2005-11-06 19:31:34 - 6 comments    |     Archives

I'm sick and have been so for nine days now, but it's not physical. My diagnosis is "depressive reaction due to being burnt out." Nine days ago I was in for my stomach's annual check up and I told my doctor that my bowels had been acting up for the past few months and severely reduced my life quality. After going through my blood tests and various other tests that I will spare you the details of, he told me that my Crohn's disease was not active, and that the cause of my troubles was something else.

We then went through my life to see if we could find a stress related cause and after a while I just snapped and started bawling. "You my friend," he said, "are a burnt out young man." And I realized something that I should have realized a long time ago, because everybody around me says they've understood it for quite a while, that the doctor was right!

I think me being burnt out is caused by several factors, but the main reason is the totally chaotic situation at work. Pulling sixty hour weeks for the past three months has taken its toll, being And maybe the break up and me moving out in May haven't been so painless as I've been telling myself?

So, doctor's orders are to take a month long break from work and do things I found enjoyable. This means that I will do a lot of writing, spend time with my son, taking long walks with my dog, taking pictures, see movies, read, listen to music, work on elfworld.org v3.0 and just relax. My doctor also told me to continue working out, but that I should stop being a work-out-aholic. You see, if I don't get to work out six days a week, I start punishing myself and obsessing with it. So I'm now trying to relax. But relaxing makes me feel guilty about not doing anything useful. And if I've put up a to-do-list and I'm not able to complete it before the day is over, I will lay awake because of it at night. So you see, I've got a lot of learning to do when it comes to relaxing, but I'm getting better.

I should've seen the warning signals a long time ago. But one thinks one is Superman, doesn't one? But the main warning signal for me should have been this spring when I discovered that I did not look forward to going to work in the morning. I love being a system consultant and developer, but lately my working day has killed any enjoyment I might have had in the chaotic ad-hoc project I've been involved with since February, and which never seems to reach completion.

After the summer holiday was over I discovered that I didn't enjoy anything anymore. I never looked forward to anything and the only times I've really been enjoying myself is when I write skits and scripts and prepare for the local revue. So I'm going to concentrate on that for a while. In stead of being a health freak I will enjoy a snack every once in a while and go for long walks in stead of long runs where I constantly demand better times, better performance and lift weights when I have the time, in stead of shaping my timetable around getting time to go to the gym. I'm going to try and appreciate the luxuries of life more, and I will do my best not to let work dominate it. No one thanks you for it anyway.

Finger Painting

2005-11-07 22:23:30 - 4 comments    |     Archives

Ellen challenged me to do a painting on the web. Let it not be said that I step away from a challenge, so I took it, even though I've got absolutely no artistic abilities in that direction. Here's the end result, and here you can see the way I used to get there.

Lasse also took the challenge, and I really like that picture. Especially when you see it in context with the previous blog posting. I'm not sure which blogger I should present this challenge to, so I would like to see my friend Arne in Bergen give it a go.

The Art of Doing Nothing

2005-11-13 23:25:32 - 2 comments    |     Archives

I've just returned from an eight day hiatus with my folks in my old home up in the usually cold, but now very warm, north. When I think back I really can't remember that I've done anything of note in the past week but I'll do a recap:

In short: A wonderful trip that did me a world of good. And it was all sponsored by mum and dad. Thanks. Luv ya very much.

Lego Star Wars: The Video Game

2005-11-14 13:04:18 - 0 comments    |     Archives

Håkon and I have been playing Lego Star Wars for the past few months and we've now completed the game twice. We've even managed to find all the white canisters and we have also unlocked the "secret" level where you get to play Episode IV, a level I think is a preview for a sequel. The latter suspicion fuelled by the fact that when you complete that level the game only displays the message: To be continued...

I heartily recommend this game. It's great fun, available on most platforms and very addictive. In true Lego tradition, it's also a very intuitive game, which explains why I have never read the manual. In an acute moment of boredom I did and I found this fantastic quote that just sums up the cuteness of this game:

"Lego Star Wars: The Video Game has been designed and tested to be suitable for players of all ages. But if you're a young player, you might find that your parents will want to join in. And although we've tried to make the game as easy as possible even for older people – inevitably, they're going to need help. We all know how impatient adults can be. So to save time explaining things to them, we suggest that you draw their attention to the following quick start tips..."

You just can't beat that.

In the Flickr

2005-11-19 01:21:50 - 0 comments    |     Archives

For some reason I've completely forgotten to blog about my brand new photo album/blog. It's on flickr.com, and thanks to Bjørn I've got a pro account, which means I can upload up to 2 GB of pictures a month. I'm constantly uploading pictures, so please visit and let me know what you think.

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